Nobody knew, not even her best friend back home in Indiana knew. Every day it gnawed at her, relentlessly, oppressively, like a blanket of smog over Manhattan on a hot humid summers day! Back in Kokomo, everyone thought that she was the "All American Girl", prom queen, National Honor Society, blonde hair, blue eyes, singing in the church choir every Sunday, volunteering at the hospital, everyone's favorite girl!!! "Well," thought Allison to herself, as she stirred her coffee and stared out at the pedestrians on 57th St., "if they only knew!" She had denied it to even herself until she was fifteen, but her total lack of interest in boys, and let me tell you, they were definitely interested in her, and her seeming attraction to members of her own sex only confirmed what she had been feeling since she five years old! "What a laugh," she thought again, "all those do- gooders and the right wing Christians feeding the public the old line that "gays are made not born", well she was here to tell ya they were full of it!!! Both of her folks were devout Christians, as was she, but nothing either of them did or could have done could have changed what she was--a lesbian!!! She clearly remembered the first time she masturbated her self to and orgasm at eighteen, and the image that was dancing in her head wasn't the head of the football team, it was her English lit teacher, Mrs. Gronemeyer! From then on, she didn't even try to fight it, so when ever she became sexually aroused, females were always the subject of her fantasies! The lucky thing about being a girl and gay, was that in the locker room, and at sleep overs, you could easily play the voyeur and get an eye full with out bringing attention to yourself! Sometimes at slumber parties, the girls would rough house and grab at each others breasts and bottoms, which allowed her to have physical contact with other girls without the taking a chance on rejection and possibly disgrace!!! On more than one occasion, Allison had had her breasts rubbed and poked during this horse play, and later when the lights were out, she would quietly masturbate herself to an orgasm while replaying in her mind the feeling feminine hands on her chest!!! That was the extent of her experience, however, and as soon as she graduated high school, she kissed her folks good by and headed for New York City, where she hoped that she could find others just like herself!

When she arrived in the Big Apple, the one thing that stunned her was the cost of housing! Even though she would be spending the majority of her time in Manhattan, she was lucky enough to find a sleeping room in Brooklyn for seventy dollars a week. Another lucky break was finding a pretty good job working as a waitress in a midtown cafe, the tips were good, and she was always off by three in the afternoon, which gave a lot of time to explore her new city! So here she was, drinking coffee in a pastry shop and reading and underground gay and lesbian magazine that had a number of ads promoting the night life in the gay community. She noted an address in Soho, left the cafe, and hopped a train and crossed her fingers!